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Optimistic i shall be.
How contradicting
I stood there alone.
And everytime i turned back,
all i can see is just a shadow.
Where's yours? Where are you?
Bleak. My life is a bleak.
Free entry all thanks to nanny & we don't have to spend the oh-so-expensive $16 admission fee.
Photos next time since all group photos are with jordan. I only took pictures of animals hahaha.
Weekend job tmr at marina square.
What doesn't kills me makes me stronger.
I will remember.
The more i know you, the more i love you(:Unwilling to be stuck at home, i went out with tuna today despite the rain was pouring. I spent quite alot at fep. I realised most of the time my spending goes to there la. Suck all my money awayyy. I've been jobless for a week plus. Its time to get a job i know but i can't really find any at this point of time.
On a Monday I am waiting
Tuesday, I am fading
And by Wednesday I can't sleep
Then the phone rings, I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
Cause you’ve come to rescue me
I don't know if anyone can understand what im going through. The cold war started a week ago and till now, i see no ending. I think i have alr been good enough. Being 18 soon, i never club before, only went class chalet once, stayed over at friend's hse once and i can proudly say that i seldom reached home after 7pm. Mind you, its a fucking 7pm okay. Seriously, i don't think many can do that, do you? So why ain't you satisfied? You're making my life so miserable.
Suicidal thoughts are haunting me once again. Which means im feeling really really bad i know :(
Even in my dreams.
Show you the power of my buddha hand
Dated with tuna today! We were caught in the rain for quite some time, camwhored & bought ice-creams. So who will still eat ice-cream when the weather is cold? :D
Tuna said he has a girlfriend who gives him heart-attack very often. Cause she always say and ask weird stuffs plus all those "WHAT IFs?"
"Dear, what if i go cut weird hairstyles uh? Will you still go out with me?"
"Dear, what if i wear coloured opaque leggings like yellow and electric blue?"
"Dear, what if tmr i die ah, then what will you do?"
Maybe all my words are going to make him kill himself. HAHAHA.
Oh yah, tagged by bestie wee to do the 7 weird facts about myself:
1.I've old man fetish. I like men who are 30 years old and above.
(thats why i have that super big crush on marvin chan!)
2.Sometimes i will laugh at ah lians with lousy dress sense.
(sometimes only okay!)
3.I'll think that im a bisexual cause i tend to look/stalk at hot girls more than hot guys.
4.Im so oh-not-perfect. I use lousy english, i've sweaty palms & feet, alot of pimples, hairy etc. And sometimes i do mind when pple laugh at or discriminate me :(
5.I secretly hope that those filthy rich cocky assholes will go bankrupt now & it shall my turn to be rich. (i also think that being rich is better than being smart)
6.I don't really like to be in the limelight but i want my presence to be notice by certain kind of pple.
7.Im a girl full of motives. BEWARE!
Thats all!
Superb. Had fondue with bestie wee today. We went beach road and then back to cp's mos. So this whole meetup is all about food and nonsense. She kept saying that im an asshole. Yes, i like to point my fingers and laugh at others. But im only alittle bit crude. Just A-L-I-T-T-L-E you know.
Didn't have any conversation with tuna for the whole day and i was lousy enough to just know that he's unwell. But nevermind now, my loveeee can heal you dearest :D
I was very bored just now so i drew on my face. Hahaha emo kid.
Oh im so happy today. I get to meet up with tuna and we went town to return my taka card so i can get back my oh-so-important $10 deposite. Im a stingy freak, $10 is alot to me okay.
Then we had my all time favourite meal and window-shopped. Im rich now but i don't like to spend. Maybe the next time you'll see me on the street with LV bag, wearing chanel pumps. Hahaha as if uh, im just being very random la.
Met up with my girlfriends(no jx!) for dinner after that at suki sushi. We binged on the green pea beans that seems highly addictive. We took a few plates of that and they complained that my miso soup is not worth the money. We had our favourite activity - gossiping. I think they are really those few whom i feel very comfortable with and i don't have to hide anything from them neither do i have to try to be a very nice soul. Im glad i have four good friends! Also, i realised i haven't meet up with eighteen for a very long time alr. But there'll be a class gathering(bbq) soon!
Kimwee, i know telling you to stay happy is not that easy. I would rather you stay strong. Like what you mentioned before, hope you'll stay strong enough to fight until every cancer cells in your body die. Just to let you know that you'll always have us around to support you!
When there's work for me, i complained that its tad too boring standing there. Now that the two weeks ended, i complained im too bored at home and i would rather im working now so that $50 easily comes into my pocket. This is how weird human beings are. Or rather, im just the one.
What i did the whole day? Met up with bestie wee in the morning and had breakfast at kopitiam. Went to another kopitiam and sat there for more talkings(i know we're like those uncles, ain't teenagers suppose to go to starbucks?) hahaha. Then we went kovan for mango ice and walked to her house. It was like hell on the way back. Have a short bball session that lasted for a few minutes only. Im just too lazy to exercise even though bestie wee was quite determined to do so. You've a very bad friend, that's me.
I've been shopping online for hours but nothing attracts me yet. I focused more on selling away mine instead and there are really nice buyers who make payment on time. Earning money makes me happy. I want to join sprees again, looking for F21 and Gojane.
Finally going to meet up with girlfriends tmr for dinner if nothing goes wrong. It has been a month since i last saw them. To be exact, it's actually before cny. I realised their valentine's day presents are still on my table. Oh god. Laughs.
So i really skipped work today, pretended to be sick & went out with dear instead. Actually i felt alittle little bit guilty after the advante salesman, Alvin called and asked me if i was feeling okay. But he deduced that i sounded quite sick even though i really wasn't. My voice sounds sick normally? NO NO!
Then tuna is such a irresponsible boy haha. Since i said i was sick, they called tuna instead to ask him go replaced me for half a day. But he purposely don't want to pick up their calls until i was with him on the train. I forced him to answer and just tell them he can't work today too. YOU UH.
We coincidentally wore green tops and black bottoms today. Headed to Chinatown since we can't think of anywhere else. I was trying to look for long colour-block skirts but the one i like is way off budget. We had traditional desserts at one of the temple streets. Mango with pomelo and sago plus their carrot cake can bring you to orgasm. Wheeeeeeha.
Before i forget, saw Kimwee today! He was alighting the lrt while im on the direction of the lrt.
Smiling as bright as the sun :D
It's passed midnight now, brother's 21st birthday is here!
21st sounds very important, i've seen many throwing parties, buffets, huge celebration.
But not for brother. He said birthday is just another day, nothing special. True indeed.
So this doesn't bother him much, not even a meal with us or his friends, he've to go to work tmr till night.
Work is a breeze today. Eric challenge me over suduko and i lost to him when i started to like 15 minutes earlier than him. He finished in just a few minutes la. Mind you, he's not like us. He's a going 40 year old man. See how slow my brain can be to lose to an uncle.
With just an sms, tuna came over almost immediately to have lunch with me and waited all the way till my work ends. My sales was so fabulous, almost hit a thousand today.
Anyway, im going to skip work tmr. Fake sickness because i need a break.
I've made my decision, not telling anyone yet.